a letter to a friend from school whom i haven't seen or heard from since i left russia

there is history to this city for me and this means limits...how true...but without these little stories we wouldn't be the people we are now.
still discovering ne and exciting pieces in this city where i spent the most important part of shading my skin like insects do to allow you to grow.i am happy!happy cos I am balanced, happy cos of the special friends i have!

and it is a pity to see the energy of our favorite city being destroyed by evilness.

in a bad mood today but we will go on.

thank you so much for your phone call my special person

complacent in being me....

wow both of you have such amazing views on the uk --- read my latest entry which will show a totally different contrast to both of yours!!! i feel suddenly slightly agast at this..... maybe im wrong and you guys are right... maybe you can be happy wherever you are..... but to each her/his own... i should stop looking at other people and keep my head down in my own thoughts of what will make me happy .... always reminising... thats what i do...

Нет худа без добра.

Hello just sayin' hi and sorry I didn't call back or anything the other night hope your well and safe. If you can't make it over here for lack of id or whatever I'll come and visit in early September and hopefully we can have some good ol' fashioned fun times without any daft and unfounded jealousies or paranoia's my friend woo hoo....*shakes a rattle* right must try and add something to my own barren journal pretty soon so when I do you have to comment otherwise I'll barred ooooooOOOOOoooOO!

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hello Friend, i am sorry i haven't had time to write you some words.
I have never been working so hard - 7 days a week for 3 companies
I get up very early and then go to work and come home at 9 and then read a book (unbearable lightness of being) and go to sleep, all days including Saturdays and on Sunday I work from home. Remember, frient when you said your cannot picture me employed - well this feels like the start of the never-ending career - if you know what i mean :)
So dear Darren, i am dreaming of my trip to ireland to c u that I am planning end of August - begging of September. Please let me know if it is ok, sorry I cannot do it earlier - I can't really take time off work that i have just started. so what else agent? how is the funk of the mind doing?
even though i always prefered it to be a mindfuck...

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darren is your former boyfriend?

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no silly minks, Darren is my very old good friend

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Darren is not VERY old *cough cough, falls over* haha!
I'm writing and existential analysis of Islam and Islamic extremism could ya get it published hehe! (just kiddin' about the publising not the writing)
Anyway hope all is good in London town I found out today I have one and a half days annual leave left having used alot of it in April and then a weeks worth in July for no reason so thats a bummer.....good news is I get a week in October and two at xmas regardless though so thats cool. I have made some new music for you to hear at some point and have been offered one or two projects oooo la la......one is to write music to go with an Edgar Allen Poe story and a trapeze act; the other is some chap wants a remix.....question is can I bothered, easy answer is no I bloody can't I've gotten more fun from charcoal sticks than music in recent memory but still I do it.....I should probably take the work shouldn't I? Ah well my utter melancholy continues........was listening to Mr Fennesz recently still love that please send me "endless summer" you bum its out of print.....one of the synths he's fond of using, the name escapes me, is being put into software form and sold for £500 so if I can get my hands on it I will surely send you a copy. Might even make something special myself! You know I read some Dostoevsky the other day for the first time in a long time just some short stories but its made me dream of going to St Petersberg again was thinking I should just do it this xmas do you think you'd consider it? I don't even know if we'd ahve time to get visa or whatever but its just a wondering thought that I've had since about ten years ago its on my to do list.

Oh and if the city is being destroyed bear in mind that the country your in went into a wholly illegal war with a bunch of imperialist fascists. Also remember that more innocent Iraqi's have been killed than us and I'm afraid this was to be expected. Particularly remember that no WMD where found and the the extremist Kurds that Saddam was said to be ethnically cleansing are now seen as part of al-Qaida by the states and this country yet Saddam is on trial in the US for trying to get rid of them in his own country. I'm not saying he wasn't a bad guy but the layers of irony historical, cultural and political are beginning to show, the depths and complexities of all these events can barely be understood by us since our access to actual information is as ever censored. Also thank Tony Blair for nothing he's managed to implement right wing policies that Margaret Thatcher herself could only fantasise over in the '80's. In general welcome to a new labour police state. Being from where I am from I feel the 'shoot to kill' policy is indeed a huge and unnecessary violation of human rights, someone needs to end the war it won't be Blair. And to further connections the CIA are now being given full powers to operate however they like in Ireland things are definitely becoming dark but on both sides my friend on both sides!

очень крутое письмо!!
same dreams i have!